Not feeling my best
Apr. 29th, 2008 10:50 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lokifan_importHave you ever planned to write a scenario, or an idea - nothing immensely specific but you knew vaguely what you wanted to do - and someone got there first?
Now on one level, you're very pleased. It's well written and it's cute, it's exactly the sort of thing you would have done but different, and almost certainly better than anything you could have come up with. You're busy, besides, and have other things to get to first; you would have kept rejecting it as too fanon or not urgent for at least another couple of months. She's done it now, and it's great. You're enjoying it a lot. Really.
And still, despite the fact that it's selfish and stupid and makes no sense, you sort of want to sulk because damnit, I had ideas and I wanted to write it myself!
Am I the only one?
Don't get me wrong. The story I'm thinking of is extremely cute and I have faith it will be very well done. I just wanted to do it myself.
Argh. This is probably all misplaced aggression and depression after fighting with my parents. It makes me itchy, though, and uncomfortable with myself. I'm used to righteous rage and this is sulking.
Now on one level, you're very pleased. It's well written and it's cute, it's exactly the sort of thing you would have done but different, and almost certainly better than anything you could have come up with. You're busy, besides, and have other things to get to first; you would have kept rejecting it as too fanon or not urgent for at least another couple of months. She's done it now, and it's great. You're enjoying it a lot. Really.
And still, despite the fact that it's selfish and stupid and makes no sense, you sort of want to sulk because damnit, I had ideas and I wanted to write it myself!
Am I the only one?
Don't get me wrong. The story I'm thinking of is extremely cute and I have faith it will be very well done. I just wanted to do it myself.
Argh. This is probably all misplaced aggression and depression after fighting with my parents. It makes me itchy, though, and uncomfortable with myself. I'm used to righteous rage and this is sulking.
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Date: 2008-05-02 01:25 am (UTC)It's
...In years to come, I may decide it's a good thing I never got round to writing it...
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