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lokifan ([personal profile] lokifan) wrote in [personal profile] lokifan_import 2008-05-02 03:24 am (UTC)

I'm a lot more attracted to Faith than Buffy too, actually. It's the lips... and the hair... and the boobs... and the attitude... and the...

Right, where was I?

Oh yeah. I totally see what you mean as far as the Clinton thing. I always reckon the difference between Occasional Girlcrush heterosexual and bisexual is lust/love - bi-curious girls might kiss other girls, bisexual girls might have a relationship with them.

I think part of my non-crisis is that I was already very pro-gay rights and used to the concept, so it fit in fairly easily. Of course, this meant people thought I'd been in the closet, and/or pro-gay rights because I'm bi, not because gay rights are a Good Thing, which kind of bugged me.

My friends and family know; my friends knew about six months before my family, though. My family still knows 'in theory', in a lot of ways. I've had a fling with another girl - I'm not the relationship type either - that they don't know about. More than that, though, is that I don't usually make comments about girls in front of them. With my friends I do, and it's fine; everyone accepts it very readily. I actually have one homophobic friend, but he still accepts it from me, because it's just a thing about Becky.

My little sister has been known to make faces, or say it's "weird" if I say a girl's hot - even in the usual round of "x in that film is really hot". My mum doesn't do that, but I can see her sort of - flinching, almost. I don't know whether they're the problem, and they can't accept the reality of my sexuality, or whether it's that I avoid bringing it up even in indirect ways, and they'd relax if they got used to it.

I kind of wonder if they think this is a youthful experiment thing, something I said because it's 'cool' - particularly since I was nearly seventeen when I told them and a supporter of gay rights. You know?

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