http://anna-unfolding.livejournal.com/ ([identity profile] anna-unfolding.livejournal.com) wrote in [personal profile] lokifan_import 2010-09-06 08:00 pm (UTC)

Black nail polish. Check.

It's funny--when I became involved in HP fandom--this is the year before DH came out--I had my third baby and promptly dyed my hair purple. I got it in my head that I wanted pink hair on Valentine's Day, and then the pink was so...PINK but with my fair headed freckleness I really needed more of a purple wine color. Even that required great amts of eye makeup or I looked crazy. But Sam hated it, and I LOVED it. I kept it for 6 months. My and my minivan and three young children in Orange County suburbia and purple hair. I didn't know why. I didn't know that I was trying desperately to look on the outside the way i felt on the inside: different. "passing" for a normal stay at home mom in conservative OC was not acceptable. And so began my adult version of the teenage rebellion.

Once I realized that I was so much gayer that "kind of bisexual but rly just am attracted to whoever I fall in love with" the reasoning behind the purple hair became more clear. Now I could dye my hair any which way but I don't need to. My life on the outside is beginning to reflect the inside. So I don't feel torn down the middle anymore. Poor teenagers!!!

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